For the last year I have tried to keep silent about my husbands project. At first I have to admit I thought"oh this will never go any where" but I felt I had to let him see it through. I was amazed when things started happening so quickly and so positively. Still, I was afraid to talk about it, afraid to hope that things would happen. Obviously, things have happened and I'm very excited but it still doesn't seem real somehow.
Last November I had a mammogram and never expected anything to come of it. In early December a nurse from my doctors office called and told me that the test showed what appeared to be a 4 mm benign node in my right breast and they wanted me to come back for a repeat mammogram in six months. Now me, I am a glass half empty person, I've got myself convinced that when I go for that test it will be cancer. I told my husband about it and he came up with a specialist that I should go to but didn't seem all to concerned which is funny because he's always convinced every little ache and pain he has means he's dying. Plus these days all he sleeps, eats and thinks about is the show.
So that has been on my mind and the show has been on my mind. Things are finally seeming real with the show and then the first check comes. Not a big one, there really is no money in this. We knew out of the first check all the guys would have to pay one of the guys back for the lawyer that they hired. No big deal we knew this and had prepared for this. Now other guys have put out money for various things and my husband has told them to hang on to receipts so that they can be paid back two of the guys that have put out them most money have both said not to worry about it. One has a business that he uses the stuff for but the other guy this was just a hobby for him and the equipment he bought really has no other use and he was the one who kept saying "don't worry about it" the most. Now all of a sudden there is money and this guy(second guy) is saying he wants to be paid back and it's a lot! I guess this wouldn't be a big deal if he had been saying all along that this is what he wanted but when you say one thing and do another it makes me furious! This is also the guy who gets mad every time someone from the production company or lawyers office doesn't do EXACTLY what they said they were going to do. Not to mention this guy doesn't have receipts for all the money he says he's owed.
I am so frustrated and worried they haven't started shooting yet. I'm afraid that there will be in fighting among them and they'll ruin the show before it's even started!
